I fell 1.25 points short of earning an A in my computer science class. Sure, that stings a little – it’s frustrating being so close – but I’m okay with it. Actually, I’m proud.
If you would have told me 3 years ago that my yearlong A streak would come to an end, I would have asked, “Future me is studying computer science? Awesome!” A few years ago, I didn’t have a GED and certainly no plans for college. I basically woke up one day, decided I didn’t like what I was doing, and took a chance.
I’m proud that I took a chance.
The fact that computer science interested me was more terrifying than exciting. It is an incredibly math heavy field and there I was, a decade out of school, and I’d never been good at math to begin with. After earning my GED, I enrolled in college and took a placement exam. My reading and writing scores were sky high. My math placement? Elementary Algebra. Even the name felt embarrassing. I had a mountain to climb, but I tried anyway.
I’m proud that I was willing to climb that mountain.
I took Elementary Algebra, struggled every step of the way, and earned a B. I finished Intermediate Algebra with an A, College Algebra with an A, Trigonometry with an A, Discrete Math with a yet-to-be-determined grade, and Calculus is on the horizon. In that time, I’ve taken a variety of social science, science, writing, art, and computer science classes. I thought I was proud because I finished them with A’s, but I think I’m just proud to finish them. I’m pouring my heart into this and that is nothing to be ashamed of — even if I fall short of my desired grade.
I’m proud of that passion.
My B doesn’t mean I didn’t try or learn. I worked on my programming every day and learned more in that class than any class I’ve taken. My loss of points mainly came down to less than a handful of projects that stumped me. Even when my frustration was at level 100, I never quit. I took my instructor’s feedback, revisited my code, and made sure I understood where things went wrong.
I’m proud that I didn’t give up.
I know a programming language now. I’m not an expert, but I have a strong foundation to build on. I can’t wait to see where this new skill takes me. So, that oh-so-close-B is a very tiny blip on what has been one of the most rewarding times of my life.
I’m proud of my highs and lows and every moment in between because they all make me stronger.
I can’t wait to see what’s next.